Last time....

Its too long to talk to u,to meet u even.really want to meet u last time.perhaps i know that u don wanna meet me but its my intimate feeling that u won't deny.plz help me to forget u .these days i m finding maself in dilemma that what should i do or not to do.why i remember u or why u always come to ma mind.I know its nothing gonna do anything n afterall its all my loss.U r not wid me but ur feeling is wid me.sometimes i thought to call u but that time my soul doesnt allow me to do so.why i should call u,nothing will happen to me but u will get in prob. n i don wanna this anymore coz allready many things had happend.

I want to share u all the things that i did for u.i know all the things gonna last.we never met.thats why i eagerly waiting to meet u.plz meet me last time n after that i wont tell u anything.I had a great time wid u that i can't forget.

Perhaps this is the last time that i m writing ma bog coz now the time comes to leave noida.n in future i don know what will happen.

The gist of my four year B.Tech life is that i hv spent great time wid ma friendz n tried to give all the things that i could but in return i didn't get anything.I m not saying that i m good person but ya i know one thing that as u sow so u reap.perhaps god wants this.now trying to get remove all the misshappenings that had happend so far.A new life is gonna start. hopefully got placed from the college n wherver the company will throw me, will be safe n sound.No chik pik anymore.These four year shows me all the thing that i should do n that i shouldnt do.

These days i m listening a song "dil mein ho tum ankho mein tum bolo tumhe kaise chahein,............janu meri janu." ...a heart touching song.

When i get tensed i always get alone sitting on the roof n thinks what the things happend n how can i get reveal from that.

Stars n the moon knows only how much i luved u.

"Leave me alone."

Today is very important day for me coz whatever thoughts came in my mind may be in future it will help me. the whole day was rely awesome,hvn't had any thing since morning execpt a litte maggi.nobody is here for me.everyone has left me alone. n i don't need anyone actually.Today i was roaming in the atta market for atleast 3 to 4 hours.i had a cold coffee n talking to my big bro on phone. What i felt is that evrytime when i used to go somewhere is only wid ma friendz but today was something new experience.rely felt very alone that time. I wish if i would hv someone wid me i would live the same life as other guys r living. but no regrets i don't need anyone at all.

In this world there r two sort of people,one is good n another is bad.It's totally depend on u where u lie.but sometimes if u r good u might hv to suffer some aweful situations.u r to come out of it.The samething happens wid me. I m not able to decide where to go. lots of complications hv come that bound me to choose the right way. This month is so disgusting that i can't tell u. nobody is here to help me.even nobody is here for asking the meal atleast.but no matters if evryone leaves then god comes.The only thing that i hvn't got till now is a best friend who atleast think about me. evrybody is mean...if u hv somework then ohhh shubham ur ma best friend n after that u got ur work done then whoz shubham...

Frienship doesn't mean that u r to do all things for him/her.atleast evryone has some self respect,attitude.I did all that i could n that i should.even then if u hv more attitude than me then its ok.leave ur life n let me leave ma life.

Perhaps i m not able for anyone.plz god help me ...show me the way.

"Remember me...

Don't get confused i hvn't seen the movie "remember me".its jus my feeling that i wanted to share wid u.this is the last month of my B.Tech life.For the last a year i hv seen so many situations..many friends..many enymies..ups n downs.but the most important thing is that at evry step i learned either it is bad or good.The only thing that i can't control is my emotions..jab bhi kisi ko dil se lagaya hai usne dhokha diya hai.U can't make ur friends happy always.

These days i m feeling very lonely coz evryone has left me.want to be alone....i don need anyone....kabhi kabhi to man karta hai ki sab profile delete kar duin aur sab se contacts bhi tod duin.people get egoistic when they get evrything.i always gave importance to my friendz but kya karun jab dil se lagaya hai sehna to padega hin.samy a great friend of mine is little angry wid me...not talking to me even.but no matters mana lunga kuch din gussa rahega.all these goes on.

Now comes to the main topic as always...love..exactly.for the last 6 month i only thought that she knows that i rely luv her,but today i heard that she still thinks that my friendz forced me to do so.everyday when i listen some romantic songs my eyes get wet...but u nevr understand or feel why it happens coz kisi ke liye ansu bahana bahut badi baat hoti hai....i don know ki tu mera blog padti hai ki nahi...par haan jis din maine bta diya ki main tere liye kya kya kar rakha hai usdin tujhe pata chalega ki how much i luved u....par sayad us samay tek der ho chukegi...par sayad mein tujhe ye sab baten batana hin nahi chahta jiska koi matlab hin na ho...i want to meet u last time.after some days u won't remember me whoz shubham...accha koi tha...The best thing as well as the worst thing happend in ma life n u know why.I always want to call her but don do that coz i don wanna make her in trouble.

U never ever called me or asked me how i m,jinda bhi huin ki mar gya..u never asked me why i called u at the night...what to do don know..
khair kya skta huin..today i hv learned one thing that if u r to know somebody u r to know him/her about u first.i want to share many thing to u but can't.

jus one thing wanted to tell u "remember me".coz i can't forget u anymore.